why is my body fighting this so hard? doesn’t it know that this is good? and that ultimately i will win? i always win. hear that, body? you will lose this fight to be fat.

one thing i’ve learned in my life is that the most worthwhile things often involve the most opposition.

i went running again yesterday. really, i just walked. whenever i tried running my body started screaming bloody murder. i happened to run into my roommate at the track and she thinks i’ve got shin splints, especially since my ability to run has steadily gotten worse over the past week. she thinks i need to take a break from running for a bit and then (1) do some crazy amount of weird yoga stretching after warming up, especially my toes. i have been neglecting stretching my toes; i don’t mean to practice toe discrimination (2) ice my legs when i’m done running and (3) probably get new shoes.

i’ll admit that my shoes are pretty cheap, but i just don’t want to spend the money on new running shoes when i could get new pretty shoes. or makeup. but i know it’s good for me so whatever. i’ll do it. i’ll go into a running store and feel all sorts of out of place and find some new shoes that don’t make me want to hack of my legs whenever i try to do something good for myself.

in other news, an old roommate of mine reminded me that i shouldn’t forget i’ve got PCOS and to consider how that might be affecting things. so i think i’m really going to do some meal plans following the insulin resistance diet, whenever i get the time. (did i mention i’m super busy? i’m auditioning for opera san jose chorus & taking a glass blowing class, so my time is quite limited. i need to rethink my priorities i think.)

i’ve been whining a ton lately, so sorry about that. here’s some things i’m grateful for, inspired by Natasha

1. roommates and friends who encourage me to keep on keepin’ on
2. i haven’t given up yet!
3. i’m not exhausted this week (so far)